Life is learnt by opposites. yes?

How to appreciate good, if you have not experienced bad. How to be close to God, if you haven't learnt the perils of being distant from Him.

Spamming this place with vids, cause this is the only thing I'm following now, entertainment-wise. Can you blame me?

The latest episode was traumatic and so well-acted; they are totally sealing my love for them, these two.

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And this is how fandom grows: you jump from one fan thingum to another, and before you know it, you find yourself swimming in fandom trivia.

Having discovered the awesomeness that is Song Joong Ki, now I want to watch this too.

Kak Waty's Red Velvet Cupcakes for Aidiladha

I had a funny but horrific dream last night, in which I found scary big blobby rashes all over the palms of my hands, and I confirmed my fear that I had Hand-Foot-and-Mouth Disease. @.@ Then I woke up, and frantically checked my palms.

Hahhha, of course, I am actually fine. It's only my subconscious playing up because we're taking turns falling sick ever since we started placement at the kindergarten and my imagination went a bit wonky. I have had terrible sore throats and irritating colds, and the kids are falling sick one after another. And we have therapy sessions where we sit close and face-to-face with kiddies who try to splutter out 's' sounds... and you just imagine the germs lah, okay.

Anyways, 2 more weeks!

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Was feeling weepy and pensive tonight, and then out of the blue, we get uplifting messages 

-- don't tell me it's coincidence, because I don't believe it is. 

:)

I believe real bridges don't get burnt.

Met up with T and D and we played The Game of Life!

Aren't we already playing the game of life?

Well, yes, but we can't reset that, can we?

Duck was being an ultra career-minded female -- no family card in sight. And she kept exclaiming, "Where is the degree card!!! I want to get my degree!"

Eventually, she gave up waiting for the degree and became a pop star after auditioning to become a part of Arashi in Japan. (The game is hilarious because it actually involves you having to make up a story to fit the card you play.) Duck also had a midlife crisis (and swapped her hand of cards with mine) after which she took a ride on the world's tallest rollercoaster, something totally uncharacteristic of her.

I won the game! 

Mostly due to Turk's insistence on discarding all her wedding cards and thereby losing out. -.-

I started out working as a stunt double (playing a female hobbit opposite Bilbo Baggins), and lived with my exotic pets, a polar bear and a shark. I had nice adventures like finding a message in a bottle from a blond dude, and swimming with dolphins. Later, I attained a degree and switched jobs to become an exotic pet vet! haha, how insane is that. Then I had an underwater wedding with my exotic pets in attendance, and bought three separate houses: an igloo, a lighthouse and a beach house, plus a private jet to travel between all of them. On top of that, 6 kids! and managing to find Big Foot in Alaska with my husband.

Hah! If only real life was as simple yet exciting as a game of cards.

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For some reason, I started reminiscing on old bollywood songs tonight. 

One of the many many old bollywood songs that evoke such strong nostalgia in me. Errr, bollywood was probably my earliest fandom? haha. Between 8 - 12 years old, I recall coming home from school to my granny's place, switching on Malaysia's TV2 after homework, and watching an insane amount of hindi movies. 

It's in the bloooooooood, as we like to say.

I think I've found my favourite korean drama pairing! OHCRAPZ. This will only mean heartache.

SPOILERS for Nice Guy.



I'll ship them so hard, but I know how terrible kdramas generally are with their endings, and either one or both of them will die or at least turn blind or maimed in some way. UGGGGHHHH. As it is, we know Maru's brain condition is a ticking bomb, and he's going to collapse and die if he doesn't do anything about those damn headaches. And Eun Gi will regain her memory and think he doesn't love her because he's being with her for revenge against the stepmum a.k.a. company-president-usurper-snake-devil-incarnate (complicated much?!?!?!). Then Eun Gi will be heartbroken and tell him to leave, only to realise after he's dead that he did love her. AH CRAP. If that's how it eventually turns out, I will hunt down and slap the drama writers, and myself, for investing time and emotion in this story and loving Maru/EunGi.

Anyway, I realise that really, I haven't truly loved a kdrama pairing! This might be the real first. Usually, sure, I think kdramas have got romance down pat and pairings are generally adorable and chemistry-laden. But I think it's cause I actually love each of the actors separately and independently and you bring their acting chops together and then, lo and behold, there are wonderful sparks! That now, I love them independently and together, and it's bringing a shipper-feeling I thought I had completely lost.

hooray for A!

I've been plundering youtube for videos for therapy and I found one that's for teaching alphabet knowledge. AND THEY ARE SO AWESOME. I need to keep bombarding one of my kiddies with input cause she appears to have some retention issues, and these are perfect and so bouncy and fun -- and even I love it and want to sing it again! So what's your bet that the kid will love this and will remember the letter A?

I'm interested in things that last.

Subhanallah....... Time management skills, why do you always desert me.

I keep wishing I was a Roswell alien so I wouldn't need more than 3 hours of sleep every day. As it is, even if I'm so incredibly exhausted, things won't stop speeding around in my head! yikes.

God, help me balance work, loved ones, and You.

If I do not wish to give, then indeed I do not show you the desired gift.

Spoilers! for Nice Guy.







No particular reason that this is here, other than my deflating after a week of tense assessments, and non-stop brain-whirring.

I think I am watching this drama mostly because I love the two leads. Currently, Moon Chae Won has no contest for being my favourite kdrama actress, and Song Joong Ki I adore because he's one of the original members from Running Man, and IMO, the perfect blend of endearing and kakkoi in a guy, with that added bit of spark and subtle humour in his personality. Not so kakkoi that you'd be intimidated by him in person and not so endearing that he's an utter dork, haha.

Anyways -- the clip shows Eun Gi after her supposed car accident and memory loss (kdrama's favourite plot device!). I find it amusing how dramas always make recovering from brain damage like a walk in the park, if perhaps a long one. And that brain damage normally confers some memory loss but otherwise, one can be a-okay. When in fact, you can take your pick from a slew of real-life traumas, seriously: paralysis / aphasia / cognitive disability / personality changes / more??? Interestingly, the drama showed Eun Gi transposing words around as she writes (ooooh, phonological issue....?) -- a point up in realism! She doesn't appear as sharp or smart a lady as she was before the car crash.

Speaking of which, for clinical placement, I may have more than one apraxia case on my poor inexperienced head right now and diagnosing this thing is confusing the frak out of me! D:

THIS WEEKEND = FIGURING OUT WHAT TO DO AND HOW TO INTERVENE for provisional apraxia diagnosis vs. inconsistent phonology disorder vs. articulation plus language and literacy issues. These are too complex for training purposes, I think. D: HOWWW. stresssssssu.



ohhhmmmmmgg.

I keep telling myself: This is hard, but Alhamdulillah.

this song, Missing You -- it's love at first listen! 

I know it's been GD every other post or so, but it's only cause he's so super busy releasing his songs right now, and Big Bang is having their greatest year yet and so I'm only helplessly enthralled -- I'm hoping my obsession calms down to sane levels soon.

where is the love...

Go with me, so I don't have to go alone.

A week into placement!

And omg, the angst. This PCF-SLP project is becoming somewhat overwhelming. There is so much work. I literally feel my headaches build-up when we sit and discuss which kids we can work on, what stuff to get for assessment and therapy, the consent form issues and checking on data from parent and teacher questionnaires and collaborating with the psych department and their projects (!!!). Like I anticipated, it leaves less space for working on my clinical skills, which is so incredibly worrisome, I tell you. How will I survive hospital next year.

Thank god for having three other wonderful peeps with me. We keep each other sane. And we can actually laugh over our stress.

For Children's Day  celebrations yesterday, the kindy kids were dancing to Gangnam style -- 

it was soooo funny and adorable! if only we weren't barred from snapping photos.

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And because I missed them: 

If there's one concert I would love to go to, it's Arashi's. I may fangirl a gazillion other things, but there's this overall Arashi-awesomeness-vibe that I want to feel live. Arashi, to my mind, is about love, friendship, and just being happy in the here and now. And they're just so genuine, wholesome and family-friendly, you know (mostly). If I had kids, I wouldn't mind them listening to Arashi.

And this is an ancient (i.e. 7 years ago! haha) video transcript from an Arashi show where they discuss Domyouji and Tsukushi, and attempt to act out bits of Hana Yori Dango (thanks to MatsuJun's drama script at hand), and behave like overall dorks/oji-sans.

This vid puts all versions of Hanadan together! Of course, for me, the Japanese version wins, hands down. Although, I have a soft spot for Meteor Garden (the Taiwanese version) for being the one that opened the door to a whole new fandom for me.



And now, I need to stop fangirling.

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A true slave is a happy one.