picture in my mind

Today's math stats paper was keeerrrraaazzy. Like seriously, mad. Okay, I suppose it's my not having grasped the concepts better and having like almost zero practice that screwed me, but omg, I BLANKED OUT so much. When I reached question 2, I was like this: @_@ and going, "Eh, I should know this, why don't I know this, how do I do this..." And five helpsheets were no help, man. I was just getting confused everywhere. And then I skipped question 2 to go to question 3, and in restrospect, I think I shouldn't have done that, because at the last minutes when I scrambled back to question 2, it seemed somehow doable, if only I'd invested the time. And when I reached question 3 and it was equally stumping, I had to tell myself, "Okay Shamiah, no panicking and running away from this question. Just squeeze your brain and do this. DO THIS OR DIE." And so I spent nearly like 50 minutes making sure I got question 3 right. Then I went to question 4 and started panicking again because frak, why does it look so complicated??? And the thing about math is that you just cannot do it when you're not calm and thinking, so question 4 was only partially done before I started panicking again and looking at the clock and flipping back to question 2 and wondering if I could pass the exam with the questions I'd managed to complete. I think I did complete enough to scrape a passing grade (provided I didn't do something stupid or overlook anything), which means that overall, the best I can hope for for this module is a B grade. -_- But then again, miracles can happen, so... maybe a B+? HAH. XD I've always been a dreamer.

So now, I still have biophysics. Which is an insane module. Whose concepts are like misty white vapours in my brain. (Something about three-dimensional random walks, and movement across membranes and pressure and the activation of nerves?) The only consolation is that it's open book. So Allah and Rasul help me tomorrow. SOMEHOW. I can do this. I can do this. GANBATTE.