Life Goes On

So. BTS came up with a quarantine-themed song;

Song of 2020, really.

💜

They also have a song called Blue and Grey on the new album, 

which didn't capture my ears from the first listen; but then I looked up the lyrics --

oh my heart.

It's about depression and melancholia, 

and BTS has a knack for making things so beautiful and ach-y.

Suga's lines killed me.

I don't know where it went wrong.

Ever since I was a kid,

I've had a blue question mark in my head.

Maybe that's why I've been living so hard.

Everyone's reflection for this year has been a general negative;

I'm meeting the birds tomorrow (possibly for the first time as a group this year...? yikesy.)

and I've been thinking, maybe we don't have to look at it all so bad.

I'll save my proper end-year reflection for December, but --

despite the general global human mess we're in,

I feel like this year, finally, my internal growth has solidified. 

I feel like there's a solid core now.

It's been purged for me, the blue question mark. 

I've confronted it head on,

and I can actually smile thinking about it all.