picture in my mind

Today is better than yesterday.

:)))

It's when they say things like this, that I feel I'm working towards the right direction. SIGH. I feel alternately sedih (i.e. Malay word for sad; the word sedih always seems to convey more sadness than the word sad to me. heh.) and hopeful. But I get it; life is supposed to be tough and hard and trying. My dad says it's sunnatul hayah. Because you can't achieve true victory without trials.

My first day of school was a parabola on the graph of happiness against time. I was kind of happy and excited to go for the first lecture of the semester (Virtue and Leadership module), but so far, I don't like the class atmosphere very much. I think the professor is kind of a cold person. Things got steadily more depressing and I started getting anxious. For no single reason -- just, among other things, FYP swimming around in my head, eating the same boring food at the Science faculty and meeting up with Turk who was not in a great mood either.

Then I started getting really depressed, after Turk went home, when I walked around Science trying to look for my profs so that I could get an advanced module approved. It was good exercise I suppose, running from S1 to S16 and back, but this sinking feeling just started when I couldn't find either of them in their offices. So I took a break from prof-hunting and prayed first. And then after that, I resumed the prof-hunting and thank God, Chen Yu Zong was back behind his computer in his messy office. And when I trudged to S1 the second time, I was afraid I wouldn't be able to catch Prof Low (cause he's like a super-busy man) but guess what, when the elevator doors opened, it was Prof Low! I was super happy. "Prof Low, you're precisely the person I'm looking for!" And he was like, "You! Haiyah, you ah, I thought you didn't want me to sign the form anymore. Never say anything!"

And I wanted to laugh, cause haiyah, I really like Prof Low. He can be funny. Which was why I went to him first for an FYP project but he didn't seem to have anything for me. He's always so jovial and seems to really care about students. And so he signed my form and went off to his car. And I realised that, hey, all it took was one happy person to pass on his happiness to me, and I'm happier already. :)

And then I met Adilah before Structural Biology class started and we caught up about each other and I was happier. And I was very pleasantly surprised when suddenly, Aisyah and Yeatian (the Biology concentration people) popped out of the classroom Adilah and me were going into and we all kind of screamed simultaneously. XD Not high-pitched screaming, just like AAAAH-HOW-WONDERFUL-IS-IT-THAT-WE-SEE-EACH-OTHER screaming. Haha, it was cute. Yeatian still had frogs to catch after her class.

So, my school day ended on a happy note. I hope this is a good sign for my final semester. Eheh.

I don't know; I like that little things like that make me happy. Like bumping into old friends. It makes me feel glad that I don't need big things to feel happy; it's always the little things.

And this long entry seems to be some revenge post after being MIA for some time. Haha.