picture in my mind

Had Physics S paper today. Feel distinction is out of reach. Please, please let it still be possible! S papers - they just make me feel like banging head against wall repeatedly.

Been addicted to Dia, indonesian soap opera. One and a half hour of it every single weekday. Am becoming seriously obsessed. It's stupid really. Nothing good happens and the characters just keep getting hurt. So frustrating. There have been two accidents and two young healthy men have died. 3 marriages are crumbling, parents of the characters are dying and two people are going to end up in asylum. Haha. It's a mad story. But you know how series are... You get addicted to the characters. Plot gets flushed down the drain but still you watch.

I was thinking about being 'on the boundaries' the other day. What I mean by this, is being close enough to something else that is not your world so that you can appreciate what you possess better. For instance, like being rich. Wealthy people need to see how it is to not have luxury to be happy with the money that they have. And intelligent people need to see less fortunate individuals to be thankful with what they've been given. And I'm happy because as far as I know, I've had the experience of being on the boundary for almost every aspect I can think of. I'm not saying my family was broke last year or anything, but at least I have been exposed, you know? I'm thankful that my parents have shown me such things. Yes, everyone knows there are starving people in the world. But knowing is different from seeing, and seeing different from helping or reaching out, and all these entirely different from the experience itself.

For instance, for me, there's Pakcik Mail. A family friend in Kelantan, who has a family of what, 13 kids? And all he does is grow fruits (mangosteens, durians and rambutans) and drive a van. And he's happy. His family lives a simple life. And I've been to their kampung house a number of times since I was 11, and I've always loved it. From them is how I know a life of simplicity. One should always endeavour to venture to the other side to see if there is greener grass elsewhere, or to just simply appreciate different kinds of grass. Haha.

I should be studying for bio... But msn is distracting. Conspiracies arise. I was reading HBP recently and came across Luna's Rotfang conspiracy again and burst out laughing! Gosh, she is hilarious. Bring down the ministry with magic and gum disease indeed.