Schooling in Singapore
Caught in the midst of this rat race,
Everyone wound up in this paper chase,
Your worth is measured by the distinctions you scored,
The more the better, the more you’re adored.
But really, nothing, nothing will ever be enough,
Who cares if getting where you are was tough?
Anything short of perfection is scorned,
And anything less than the ideal mourned.
Now perfection is all well and good,
And I would be perfect if I could.
But this endless academic quest
To hoard As in a paper treasure chest –
For what purpose, for what aim?
For security, for fear of shame.
Because eight As will be dismal compared to nine,
And six and seven not at all fine.
Throw your interests out the window,
Math and Science are all you need to know.
You see, pursuing your passions is just too risky,
And to falter would be all too easy.
Who cares about gratitude or humility,
Courtesy, sincerity or generosity?
In this race it’s every man for himself,
Keep up those As, or you’ll be left on the shelf.
I say this should be published in the newspaper. Speaks for all Singaporean youngsters.
Anyway, The Last Samurai was FANTASTIC. I loved it. It's another movie where I can appreciate the fighting scenes.
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Friday, February 27, 2004
More INFP thingys.
You birds will laugh your heads off at this. I swear.
INFPs feels tremendous loyalty and commitment to their relationships. With the Feeling preference dominating their personality, harmony and warm feelings are central to the INFP's being. They feel a need to be in a committed, loving relationship. If they are not involved in such a relationship, the INFP will be either actively searching for one, or creating one in their own minds.
Oh man... I need to get a grip with reality.
You birds will laugh your heads off at this. I swear.
INFPs feels tremendous loyalty and commitment to their relationships. With the Feeling preference dominating their personality, harmony and warm feelings are central to the INFP's being. They feel a need to be in a committed, loving relationship. If they are not involved in such a relationship, the INFP will be either actively searching for one, or creating one in their own minds.
Oh man... I need to get a grip with reality.
Today's THE big day. In an hour's time, I'll be off to meet dearest 409 and we'll all, in the words of Evelyn, "gan cheong" together till they hand the dreaded slips out. I don't exactly know how I feel. I'm not that nervous... but I think it's because I'm making myself not think about the papers and the specific questions which I found hard to answer. And I guess my poor memory helps... Can't remember anything anyway. My nervousness is somewhere deep down inside... I'm deliberately suppressing it. I do not want to be hyperventilating the whole day. I just hope that when I'm in the hall, all that suppressed energy doesn't burst out... I'll faint.
Will come back later today to post about my results. But maybe I won't. If I'm too depressed, all I'll do is sit at one corner and think and cry and think and cry and think and finally get over it and come back to reality. Hope that doesn't take too long because I have tons of homework for Monday.
Hm. Been reading about my personality type again. Apparently, I'm the Healer type. I should be the healer... not duck. Hee. Very accurate account of INFPs here...
Healers have a profound sense of idealism derived from a strong personal morality, and they conceive of the world as an ethical, honorable place. Indeed, to understand Healers, we must understand their idealism as almost boundless and selfless, inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something they believe in. The Healer is the Prince or Princess of fairytale, the King's Champion or Defender of the Faith, like Sir Galahad or Joan of Arc. Healers are found in only 1 percent of the general population, although, at times, their idealism leaves them feeling even more isolated from the rest of humanity.
Far-fetched as it may seem, it's really quite accurate. I think I have this too idealistic view of people. I think that everyone is good. How can they not be? We all started as young children, innocent and pure. So doesn't it mean that everyone, deep inside, wants to be good? Even Hitler, say. He must have been a normal kid. Extremely smart, of course. But something happened that made him do certain things. Wasn't it something about his father...? Can't remember. It seems to me like he was taking revenge on the Jews for hurting him or something... Hm. The weird thing is that I always feel that these 'bad guys' just need a good talking to, to realise their bad ways. That is why I'm more and more certain that I want to be a psychologist.
Yay! INFPs are such great people! Joan of Arc!!! I'd like to sacrifice for my beliefs if it is required of me. I don't know if I'm brave enough. But I'd like to. Actually, I've always dreamed of playing a big part in defending Islam... the way it's being prosecuted these days... so saddening. Hm.
And you have no idea how alone I feel sometimes.
OMG.... this description is just too accurate for words. I have to log off. Feeling extremely depressed. INFPs have such sad lives.
Link here.
Link here too.
Had to type this in. INFPs are talented writers! Let's hope my O-level English essay impressed the markers... I need my English A1!
INFPs are usually talented writers. They may be awkward and uncomfortable with expressing themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counseling or teaching. They are at their best in situations where they're working towards the public good, and in which they don't need to use hard logic.
Will come back later today to post about my results. But maybe I won't. If I'm too depressed, all I'll do is sit at one corner and think and cry and think and cry and think and finally get over it and come back to reality. Hope that doesn't take too long because I have tons of homework for Monday.
Hm. Been reading about my personality type again. Apparently, I'm the Healer type. I should be the healer... not duck. Hee. Very accurate account of INFPs here...
Healers have a profound sense of idealism derived from a strong personal morality, and they conceive of the world as an ethical, honorable place. Indeed, to understand Healers, we must understand their idealism as almost boundless and selfless, inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something they believe in. The Healer is the Prince or Princess of fairytale, the King's Champion or Defender of the Faith, like Sir Galahad or Joan of Arc. Healers are found in only 1 percent of the general population, although, at times, their idealism leaves them feeling even more isolated from the rest of humanity.
Far-fetched as it may seem, it's really quite accurate. I think I have this too idealistic view of people. I think that everyone is good. How can they not be? We all started as young children, innocent and pure. So doesn't it mean that everyone, deep inside, wants to be good? Even Hitler, say. He must have been a normal kid. Extremely smart, of course. But something happened that made him do certain things. Wasn't it something about his father...? Can't remember. It seems to me like he was taking revenge on the Jews for hurting him or something... Hm. The weird thing is that I always feel that these 'bad guys' just need a good talking to, to realise their bad ways. That is why I'm more and more certain that I want to be a psychologist.
Yay! INFPs are such great people! Joan of Arc!!! I'd like to sacrifice for my beliefs if it is required of me. I don't know if I'm brave enough. But I'd like to. Actually, I've always dreamed of playing a big part in defending Islam... the way it's being prosecuted these days... so saddening. Hm.
And you have no idea how alone I feel sometimes.
OMG.... this description is just too accurate for words. I have to log off. Feeling extremely depressed. INFPs have such sad lives.
Link here.
Link here too.
Had to type this in. INFPs are talented writers! Let's hope my O-level English essay impressed the markers... I need my English A1!
INFPs are usually talented writers. They may be awkward and uncomfortable with expressing themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counseling or teaching. They are at their best in situations where they're working towards the public good, and in which they don't need to use hard logic.
Sunday, February 22, 2004
Lately, I've been thinking... about my future. Now that we're all in college, I've realised we're a step closer to entering the real world. And I was still clueless about what I wanted to be. Do I really want to be a doctor? The long hours...? All that gory blood? And cutting up of dead bodies? I thought I wanted to... But I don't know anymore. I'm thinking... that maybe... I'd like to do psychology. If not, then biological research.
I checked my personality type and it confirmed that popular careers for INFPs included psychologists and researchers. YAY. I know myself.
I checked my personality type and it confirmed that popular careers for INFPs included psychologists and researchers. YAY. I know myself.
Monday, February 16, 2004
Thursday, February 12, 2004
I am so terribly exhausted.
It's funny how... at some points of time, certain things can seem so fun and at other times... they don't. How extremely strange life is. Sigh.
Throat hurts badly. Manu claims she passed it to me.
I see my entry is going to be an accumulation of chopped up sentences. What a horror. I have lost the ability to write simple continuous paragraphs. Argh.
Today's bio prac was the first time in which I understood what I had to do. Did it with Jean cause Jessica didnt come to school. Ate the oranges which we didn't squeeze. Delicious... though Jean claimed her's tasted bitter. Must have been contaminated by the DCIP solution thingy. Heh.
Have work to do but am deliberately pushing it aside. It's always HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK. Singaporean students have no life. Partly envious of Jiawen. I would love to have the opportunity to learn in a different sort of environment...
It's funny how... at some points of time, certain things can seem so fun and at other times... they don't. How extremely strange life is. Sigh.
Throat hurts badly. Manu claims she passed it to me.
I see my entry is going to be an accumulation of chopped up sentences. What a horror. I have lost the ability to write simple continuous paragraphs. Argh.
Today's bio prac was the first time in which I understood what I had to do. Did it with Jean cause Jessica didnt come to school. Ate the oranges which we didn't squeeze. Delicious... though Jean claimed her's tasted bitter. Must have been contaminated by the DCIP solution thingy. Heh.
Have work to do but am deliberately pushing it aside. It's always HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK. Singaporean students have no life. Partly envious of Jiawen. I would love to have the opportunity to learn in a different sort of environment...