Blogging from amidst the SPA conference right now.

Being here makes me feel like a small fish, trying to play with the big guns. It reminds me of how little I know (and how little I literally am, haha)! And how much there is still out there -- it makes me feel excited about a whole lifetime of learning and honing and developing.

I think one of the ways you know if you've made the right decision, Alhamdulillah, is if you don't feel trapped thereafter. I remember being younger and not knowing how to make choices, thinking that I'd close myself off to wonderful things once I make a decision. It is true and unavoidable that in making a decision you ultimately choose one path and leave the other paths behind; the difference in the right path however, is that you don't feel like turning back to check out on the other paths, and you feel excited about running ahead to discover the wonderful things you know lie further down this path you've chosen.

So instead of feeling trapped, you feel like you're running free instead.

Watched Epic the Animation today -- surprisingly entertaining and funny! 

Love these two crazy slugs.

So exhausted these last few days. Today, I honestly felt like a little hamster on a treadmill -- I almost literally scurry between rooms and scurry around between patients. And at the end of it all, I have a headache trying to squeeze in all the paperwork!

Some day it will be okay? Please, God.

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“I think we have created this stigma of confusion around relationships which makes those who prefer to be direct and honest feel like we’re over thinking, when in fact, we’re just uncomfortable in a place that requires that we act slyly. All this stuff about playing games and whatnot is ridiculous. Be honest with yourself, be honest with others, and go after what you want. No matter what you do or say, what is written for you will be yours and what isn’t won’t be. So go, take a leap of faith, put yourself out there, and don’t be afraid to hear no, because your provision has already been written.” 

-- Nadir Keval

Alhamdulillah, this puts such a perspective of being Muslim in a non-Muslim situation. (:

I'm liking more and more of Shaykh Omar's lectures; this one especially reminds me to do things I need to even when it gets hard! And not dart away around corners to pray, and feel guilty when I'm only trying to be what I should.

Also, about a month to Ramadhan -- this time I'll make sure I get out of it at least a little better than before!

cinta jangan pergi

Been cooped up at home the past two days, with a terrible sore throat and a croaky voice. I have come to realise how much my job depends on my speech -- being a speech therapist and all, haha. I hope my throat doesn't worsen after my return to work tomorrow... :( seeing as how I spend the better part of almost every hour talking non-stop.

I've taken this nice retreat at home to go over my Arabic grammar books! I do love quiet hours and sitting with books and not having to rush.

On the drama front -- I have actually started a Malay drama! Wahhh, you should say. The first time in a long time; actually the first time since this same pairing in Nur Kasih. And now they're together again in Cinta Jangan Pergi -- the plot kinda reminds me of Winter Sonata, except there isn't really a memory loss plot device (which is k-drama's forte). With Malay dramas, I'm always kinda on edge, waiting to be disappointed, but this hasn't been too bad so far.

And the songs are nice nice nice!