Hmmmmmmmmm.

Is there a real you?

This man says, not really.



I've always talked about and wondered when it is that the 'you' now is no longer the 'you' then or the 'you' of the past. I always say it takes about a span of two years, haha. Because it's often that I look on a blog entry from two years back and cannot entirely recognise the state of mind I was in. And yet, strangely enough, if what is proposed in this talk contains some truth, what happened then resulted in the me now.

Also, if a lot of what we are is this process of development, is this blog, possibly, one of the greatest representations of my self?

:O

wow wow wow. ahahah.

I should shut up, and go do something productive instead of mulling over hypotheticals.

I finished Terry Goodkind's first volume in the Sword of Truth series, Wizard's First Rule, and it's been good so far. More so than I expected! It wasn't his style that got me, but the conceptualizations of love, hate and anger and how magic has been built upon such human emotions. There are very, very twisted ideas in it too, and gory like no other thing I've read, I think. (Entrails spewing all over the ground, and potions consisting of hearts, brains and other unmentionable organs.) But strangely, I don't think it's off-putting. It just makes the whole thing more... real; the horrors are deliberately being thrown into the reader's face to emphasize how villainous the villain is. And then one starts to get angry the way the protagonist, Richard Rahl, gets angry at everything. No surprise, the book succeeds in many parts where the television production fails.

I thought this bit about how confession feels like is fascinating. Confession is the power of enslaving someone by touch, and it basically exploits the emotion of love in someone until it consumes them entirely.

Pain. I remember the pain. It was exquisite, beyond anything you could imagine. The first thing I remember after the pain is fear. Overpowering fear I might be breathing wrong, and it would somehow displease her. I almost died from fear that I would displease her. And then when she told me what she wanted to know, it was a flush of the greatest joy I had ever known. Joy, because then I knew what I could do to please her. I was overjoyed that she had made a request of me, that there was something I could do to satisfy her, and make her happy. Nothing else was in my mind, only to please her. To be in her presence was beyond bliss. The pleasure of being in her presence made me cry with elation.


I like this confession scene! Kahlan <3.

You know, you think you're a freak until you meet another freak, and realise there's a whole world of freaks, and it's actually not that you're a freak, but that you've just been in the wrong place all your life.

(:

What a gift to be created as a human being knocking on the doors of eternity!

This morning, someone at APEX gave his reason for joining APEX: To stay sharp. I want to be a war journalist for Al-Jazeera.

And everybody was like: ?????? What's the connection! Hahahaha.

Tutoring English would help me. 

Seriously, I forget that this can really be fun sometimes.

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I also finally watched the finale of that Jdrama I mentioned, Watashi ga renai dekinai riyuu.

<3 Ultimately, it's more about friendship and the strange route our lives take, rather than romance. And I love the way it ended! They're happy even when things didn't turn out perfect like the way they wished it could. It was awesome. Jdramas, I swear you win over Kdramas in almost every way. I don't think they're even within the same league to be compared. :P

And Namie Amuro's Love Story as the theme song:



The blue bird of happiness has been in your positive heart all along.

Moments of clarity, why so fleeting.

Those precious times, when suddenly, you see things clearly and you realise you're so happy this moment, in this time, and you feel like whatever is thrown your way is small and trivial and you see the bigger, grander route. Where you're going is clear; the path is bright and certain. But then, you turn your attention, answer a call or get diverted by a television screen, and it's gone.

Until hopefully the next precious moment of clarity.

They say problems as big as mountains will feel light as a feather's touch.

I can't remember who said this, but:

It may be that those who do most, dream most.

I fully intend to do more this 2012. There's only so much one can go on babbling and not sound empty when one doesn't follow through with action, ne. I simply want to work harder and please God.

Happy 2012 to you!

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This is an adorable tumblr that ohmygod, actually makes me want to go back to be a teenager again -- like what. How old am I that I actually reminisce so fondly on my teen years.

Not to digress: this is a tumblr involving the HP golden trio answering random questions; cute beyond belief! And it stays close to canon!

Harry, when did you first suspect Ron and Hermione had feelings for each other?

If you had to be in a different House at Hogwarts, which would you choose?

Haha, Gryffindor or death?!?!? Nothing less expected of a Weasley.