Thursday, December 30, 2004

You Are a Dreaming Soul
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this worldSo much so that you tend to live in your head most of the timeYou have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult
You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?


Was actually A Visionary Soul earlier... So which am I? A mix of the two perhaps...
Almost finishing my book. Like the story. It's very sad. And I have to say that I absolutely hate King Henry VIII. A most selfish man. Ambition and power really does corrupt, I think. Absolute power corrupts absolutely. Also, stories should not involve little children being... maltreated. I can deal with blood and gore and war and all the fighting, and grown-ups dying. But put a little child in the story, and make it a pawn, and I fall to pieces in fear for its life. Am traumatised enough by what happened in PiF.

I realise that everytime I go home from wherever, taking the train, I look forward to that walk from the interchange right to my doorstep. During that 10 minutes or so, I simply let my feet carry me, and my thoughts start to wonder. The route is so very familiar that my feet really just leads me. I'll be so far off in my thoughts that, I think, if you saw me, and waved and shouted to me, I wouldn't notice you. Much like being engrossed in a good book. More than once, I caught myself at it. I'd be walking and I'd start thinking about something and then suddenly, when I'm finally fully aware of my immediate surroundings, I'd be at the lifts under my block of flats. And I'd realise I had no recollection of some parts of the journey. I mean, I do vaguely remember walking, but it seemed over too soon. As though I was so absorbed in my thoughts, the real walk seemed a blur.

I like that solitary walk home. It just gives time to think, to wonder and to ponder. I don't know what to call it... It's just... peaceful. Or perhaps it's a calming exercise, both for the mind and the body.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

The Big Move tomorrow. And I am not supposed to get on the train. But I will try. Am miffed.

Anyway, have something to say. I know that my blog is in a very public place - the World Wide Web. I can't help it if my blog seems to constantly appear in the yahoo search results. I really don't know why. And I don't know how to go about finding out the reason. I wish I could put a password like Pige does, so that only selective people are privy to these information, but I have no knowledge of how to do that, either. So here lies my blog entries, for everyone to see, if they wish. And honestly, I am fine with that now. Because I made the choice of having a blog. And this place has never been a store for my innermost emotions anyway. Merely a channel for sharing between friends. But I ask for only one small thing: Have the courtesy of letting me know if you've visited? Especially if I do know you. I mean... Passing visitors do stumble here, and leave with no impression... And I couldn't care less. But it's a bit different if you're someone I know. Just say something, won't you? There's a guestbook. Don't leave me in the dark.

Of course, I wouldn't be able to do anything if you are determined to remain lurking in silence. So be it. -_-

'The Other Boleyn Girl' has taken a very unpleasant turn. Was annoyed that what I wanted to happen has no prospect of ever happening. But I like the story. Themes of ambition, power, sacrifice and love. The three Boleyn siblings, Anne, Mary and George, doing whatever it takes to bring the Howard family to the highest possible position in England - the throne. And it's all quite sad... Here's a bit of it.

His young handsome face crumpled and he buried his face into the rich sleeve of his jacket. "I'm in love with a man," he said simply. [What is it with homosexuality in the 16th century?]

"Francis Weston," I said at once. [And he had to be called Francis?!]

His silence told me that I had guessed right.

Anne's face was one of stunned horror. "Does he know?"

He shook his head, still buried among the rich red velvet of his embroidered sleeve.

"Does anyone else know?"

Again his brown head shook.

"Then you must never give hint of it, never tell anyone," she ordered him. "This must be the first and last time you speak of it to anyone, even to us. You must cut him out of your heart and mind and never even look at him again."

He looked up at her. "I know it's hopeless."

But her advice was not for his benefit. "You endanger me," she said. "The king'll never marry me if you bring shame to us."

"Is that it?" he demanded, in sudden rage. "Is that all that matters? Not that I am in love and tumbled like a fool into sin. Not that I can never be happy, married to a snake and in love with a heartbreaker, but only, only, that Mistress Anne Boleyn's reputation must be without blemish."

At once she flew at him, her hands spread like claws, and he caught her wrists before she could rake his face. "Look at me!" she hissed. "Didn't I give up my only love, didn't I break my heart? Didn't you tell me then that it was worth the price?"

He held her away but she was unstoppable. "Look at Mary! Didn't we take her from her husband and me from mine? And now you have to give up someone too. You have to lose the great love of your life, as I have lost mine, as Mary lost hers. Don't whimper to me about heartbreak, you murdered my love and we buried it together and now it is gone."

George was struggling with her and I gripped her from behind, pulling her off him. Suddenly, the fight went out of her and the three of us stood still, like masquers forming a tableau, me, hugging her waist, him holding her wrists, her stretched hands still inches from his face.

"Good god, what a family we are," he said wonderingly. "Good god, what have we come to?"

"It's where we're going that matters," she said harshly.

George met her gaze and nodded slowly, like a man taking an oath. "Yes," he sighed. "I won't forget."

"You'll give up your love," she stipulated. "And never mention his name again."

Again the defeated nod.

"And you'll remember that nothing matters more than this, my road to the throne."

"I'll remember."

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Nikki is in Chennai. The earthquake... Tsunamis... I really, really hope she's all right. =S

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Went bowling for the first time today. Didn't get any strikes. Bowling isn't my thing... I suppose. Got quite frustrated at myself. I just couldn't put enough force into it...

After that, we (my usual cousin gang) went to play laser mania for the first time - you wear these vests with flashing lights and a connected gun... and you shoot each other. We were split up into two teams and we went into this dark maze. My blasted gun kept going off. But it was still fun... the vest vibrates when you're shot... and you take 4 or 5 seconds to recover. I turned out to be quite the marksman... shocked me. Was 6th in rank out of 18 people.

Friday, December 24, 2004

Finished Agatha Christie's Murder on the Orient Express. What an incredible mystery plot. Much too... incredible, if you ask me. Mystery stories are always so factual compared to other stories. I much prefer stories which make you cry or scream or become angry or terribly happy. When I was reading that Poirot novel, I was merely frustrated. I kept going: "Where? Where???", "Haaaah. WHAT.", "How did he know that???" and "That's not possible." It's all very intellectually stimulating, but I much prefer those angsty, smash your heart to smithereens kind of novels.

To which I have to add that Pawn in Frankincense is the most emotionally-engaging book I have ever had the privilege to read. The ache remains. I can't get rid of it.

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Am going through a phase... which might not turn out to be a phase. Haha. I have discovered that I am attracted to historical fiction. It might be because of Lymond... or it might be the other way round - that part of the reason I adore LC is because it is historical fiction. Before I knew Lymond, I was already interested in historical stuff... or fiction that has its roots in actual history.

Borrowed 'The Other Boleyn Girl' by Philippa Gregory and 'The Girl With The Pearl Earring' by Tracy Chevalier today. See what I mean? Borrowed Poirot too though.

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a Visionary Soul. You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.
You have great vision and can be very insightful.In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.
Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?


=) Sounds nice. There's a 'What kind of Intelligence Are You?' Quiz as well... But I got the Linguistic Intelligence... which I didn't find very accurate. Hm.

Monday, December 20, 2004


Crappy shot. Muahaha.

[Jamal, the camel. Elsie's friend.]
A cuuuute camel soft toy! My sis found it at the famous souk - Khan El Khalili. It's a really nice sort of bazaar... lots of interesting trinkets, lots of bargaining...

Camels! Took a ride, albeit a really short one. Bumpy. Liked it.

What the pyramid looks like up close.

The sun atop the pyramid

Us at Giza. Reminds me of the Weasley pic. Haha.

As close as it was possible to get near the Sphinx

Sphinx - closer shot

Wider shot
In Cairo, Egypt, I stayed, with my family of 16 people, in an apartment located in an Indonesian student hostel. It had a main hall, and several smaller rooms connected to it. I roomed wth my sister and 30-year-old cousin who always travels with us. There was always food in the main hall - 24 hours a day. Loaves of bread, jam, nutella, cheese, lipton tea (not that I fancy this much), hot and cold water dispenser etc. And at each meal, asian food will be served - nasi lemak in the mornings and fried rice at night. Suffice to say, food wasn't a problem.

There were always other people in our apartment. My uncle's friends and acquaintances in Cairo always came by... and this consisted of mostly Azhar University (the first university in the world) students. [Abang Hattar, Marhani, Rashid, Kamarul, Fauzan, Shamsul, Kak Siti Hawa and Kak Faridah.] There were Singaporeans, Malaysians and Indonesians. And we got to know them really well. Often, we'd just sit together in the main hall and talk. It was nice... and home-y. I think I missed that part most about Egypt - the apartment and the people and the nice times we had.

Anyway, we visited the Pyramids early on in the trip. The famous three pyramids of Giza. Unfortunately, I did not go into the pyramid. Elders had some qualms about it... some superstition. I brought back to our apartment, a pebble from Giza. To which has been blamed my consequent ill health. So I threw it away. Yes, I was sick, with fever and terrible sore throat and ear ache. And went to a doctor in Dandara, a small town in Lower Egypt. I had the flu.

I should describe the pytamids in detail. But... nothing much to say. There isn't much more than what you see in pictures or videos. They are big, of course... and really quite majestic... But, frankly, it was quite a flat feeling when I finally laid eyes on one of the seven wonders of the world. I'll paste some pictures later. Then there was the Sphinx, which we couldn't touch. We couldn't even get near. Maddenning. Again... it looked grand. But its face is... yes, quite gone. Weathered.

Very dusty. Very. Sometimes, you'd breathe in dust and won't stop coughing for minutes on end. Really quite bad.

Cairo, is a city of horns. The streets are constantly jammed. At some point in any journey, your vehicle will most definitely get stuck in traffic. And they will all start horning! Like they're talking to each other. Beeps everywhere. After a while, you get used to it, and don't jump in fright every time. Oh, and the traffic lights - they don't work. They just blink amber, that's all. No wonder traffic is bad, eh? Occassionally, when it gets too bad, the traffic police come in. Otherwise, it's a matter of hand waving, beeping and horning, and squeezing your van through gaps. Really quite mad. And crossing the roads are just scary. We just keep saying how, if we were to live there, we'd most definitely die getting knocked down by a car. I recall how I'd just grip the arm of the person next to me and we'd all dash across the road together. Haha.

Egypt, is also, a country of beautiful people. Really. I have never seen so many gorgeous people within so short a period of time. Ok, granted, Europeans have the nice colouring - the blond, brown, red hair and blue, green and gray eyes. Arabs normally have dark colouring. Ocassionally, they have light brown hair and eyes... or even greenish eyes. But what the Arabs have are perfect features. Almost every one of them have perfectly sculpted noses, and nicely lined eyebrows and absolutely enchanting eyes. I swear, it's not modern day make up or plasic surgery. 7 out of 10 people on the streets are beautiful. There was a sweeper, in an orange uniform, who made me do a double take. And when we went to the theme park called Dream Park, we were surrounded by good-looking teenagers. At some points, it seemed unreal. However... for all their good looks... they were an uncivilized lot.

6 of us - me, my bro, my sis and three cousins, were queueing up for this particular ride. The one like Wipe Out in Gold Coast, Australia; where you get flipped upside down and rolled about a couple of times. We queued up for it for an hour. Because they kept jumping and cutting queue and climbing the 1.7 m high gates. The 6 of us were about to go mad. I had never been so angry in public before. I am, I can safely say, a patient and tolerant person. But those people were driving us completely insane. They were a RUDE, ROWDY lot. And I have never gone to an amusement park with such lax security before. I kept muttering curses under my breath and called them 'uncouthed idiots' right to their faces. Some of them could understand english, I could see, because they stared at me when I cursed. But I didn't give a damn. They cut your queue right in front of your eyes... and push and were just absolutely uncivilized animals! And climb the gates! It was like a riot, I tell you. The 6 of us foreigners stuck together like glue, with me and my sister in the centre, surrounded by our boy cousins. At one point, Hefni, the oldest of us and who'd just finished his A-levels, started bellowing angrily when this group of boys started climbing the gates and crossing over our heads. Some of them weren't as bad... but they still wanted to cut queue. One of them sign languaged to my brother: "My friend -" and pointed to his friend in front of us. To which my brother replied: "My friend is right in front of the queue; CAN I GO THERE?" I tell you... we were so angry. But we couldn't possibly start punching any of them. For one thing we were small. For another, there were 6 of us and a million of them. There seemed to be some school trip. That was one hour of my life, which I will never forget.

We also went by train, to Luxor. The centre of old Egyptian civilization. There was the temple of Karnak. We also went to Cleopatra's temple, and Hatshepsut temple. Hatshepsut was a female pharoah (quite a feat to be so at that time) who often dressed as a man. And finally went into some tombs. At some parts, we had to crawl because the tunnel was so small. Pharoahs normally married their siblings and daughters and sons. Quite ewey. Incest fest. If I'm not wrong, Ramses II had about 50 wives, of which 2 were his daughters. His favourite however, was the fifth, called Nefertiti (or is it Nefertari? Darn, I forgot.) You sohuld take a look at some of the photos.

Will stop here for now.

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Having slight headache... Should sleep... But have some weird jet lag...

Went to Cassie's blog. Saw DV 15 Part 2 cookies. Feel like crying. Feel like grabbing hold of someone, Cassie preferably, and shaking her hard. MAD. Please. Why do people love to torture their characters. My heart just bleeds. And I keep reading these kind of novels where the main characters just... SUFFER. @_@
Pirate Monkey's Harry Potter Personality Quiz
Harry Potter Personality Quiz
by Pirate Monkeys Inc.

Muahaha. The first thing I do when I come back from Egypt is an HP Personality quiz. Haha. It's accurate anyway... INFP I am.

Anyway... AM BACK. Lots to say. But can't say all now. Have tons of photos to paste. Just landed... an hour ago... Bags still unpacked... Wanted to bring back pebbles from Giza but dad and relatives convinced me that it was cursed, and was the cause of my ill health there. Hah. So I didn't bring it back and had to leave it along the dusty streets of Cairo.

Later!

Friday, December 03, 2004

Leaving for Egypt tonight. Getting quite excited. Will be back on 18th!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

"Chide not the pupil hastily, for that will both dull his wit and discourage his diligence, but [ad]monish him gently, which shall make him both willing to amend and glad to go forward in love and hope of learning... Let the master say, "Here ye do well". For I assure you there is no such whetstone to sharpen a good wit and encourage a love of learning as his praise... In mine opinion, love is fitter than fear, gentleness better than beating, to bring up a child rightly in learning."
~ Roger Ascham, 1515-1568, Scholar and Tutor to Queen Elizabeth

Was trying to do three things simultaneously: pack my bag, finish editing my fifth and last switzerland vcd and complete my mom's b'day present. Succeeded in only doing the first.

Started reading RC. Suddenly find the whole chunk about Russia not so bad. It used to seem draggy to me. Will bring it to Egypt.


Wednesday, December 01, 2004

First, shall say that my work experience was cut short. By 2 days. With some excuse that the Neuroradiology people were busy with... something. Can't quite remember what the lady said. The moment I registered the fact that it was over, my mind couldn't focus. I hadn't said goodbye properly to the friends that I made, especially Estella! I even made an ambigram for her when we were bored to death in the research lab. And Derrick has my Finding Nemo DVD! Must sms him to return it to me... next year. Really had a lot of fun with all the other 6 people on the attachment. We even played the... whaddyacallit... number game. The choose-a-number-between-1-and-500 game. And the person who lost would have to drink a whole bottle of water. That isn't much of a forfeit, I know. But what could we do? We wanted to send the loser to the stinky animal research lab, but then decided that it was too far. And we'd have to press the intercom each time. Haha.

Anyway, celebrated Duck's birthday yesterday. Really had lots of fun. The whole planning part was really hilarious. I think we laughed all the way on the train ride. Duck's LJ entry described it all.

Leaving for Egypt on Fri night. Yes, Egypt! Shall paste lots of pictures here when I come back!

Wasn't as excited as I was going to Switzerland... but I will be excited on Friday. Yay. Havven't packed though. Hate packing. :P